**As a belated 2015 New Years Resolution, I decided I would write a daily (or, almost daily, I know some days I just won’t be able to find the time) blog answering a thought provoking question from a long list of questions I found here in a quest of self exploration.
Today’s Chosen Question :
What do you wish you spent more time doing five years ago?
What an…interesting question, because it was about five years ago that somehow got mixed up in the lives of what I refer to as “Adult Mean-Girls.” To answer the actual question, I wish I spent more time writing… and just focusing on myself and my life rather than allowing myself to feel suppressed by the adult-bullying I was being put through and the compulsion to defend myself. Sarcasm and feuding and rumors kind of took over my life for a while which was so strange because when I was a teenager, none of that really existed, people were more or less respectful of each other whether we liked each other or not so I was pretty blindsided by everything I had to put up with. Who knows where I could be with my writing if I just laughed at that ridiculousness, tossed it aside and truly focused on my passion? But… you can’t change the past, you can only make better, more productive choices for your future so here I am, readjusting my life, changing my focuses, actually going after my dream job, cutting toxic people out of my life completely and focusing on only positive things. My hope is that if I run across this question five years from NOW, I will be able to say, “Nothing, I spent my time doing exactly what I know I should have been doing and its lead me to the good life I have today.” 🙂