**As a belated 2015 New Years Resolution, I decided I would write a daily (or, almost daily, I know some days I just won’t be able to find the time) blog answering a thought provoking question from a long list of questions I found here in a quest of self exploration.
Today’s Chosen Question :
What would you regret not fully doing, being or having in your life?
I really try to live a life with as few regrets as possible and I have found the way to do that is to not take yourself too seriously and not spend too much time worrying about what anyone else might think of you. Living life to its fullest is all about having the most fun, and the most laughs possible. The only time I have regrets is when I let someone else bully me into not doing something I want to do because then I miss out on an experience for no reason at all.
I have had weight issues most of my life due to strange medical conditions and its a struggle, not just physically but mentally and emotionally because of how incredibly discriminatory society is toward people that are overweight. For years I refused to put on a swimming suit or go to a beach because I kept thinking to myself, No one wants to see a fat girl in a swimsuit at the beach. Last summer I finally just said fuck that, and I went to the beach with my nieces while we were on vacation. We played in the water, I paddle boarded and I sat out in the sun and it was a really nice few days. I’m glad I have those memories. I realized, if people have a problem with the particular amount of fat on my body, (which is really none of their business or concern in the first place) thats THEIR problem, not mine, and why the hell should I miss out on something because of what they might think? I can walk down the street and sometimes look at someones outfit and think to myself, what on earth possessed this person to think wearing that was a good idea? But at the end of the day its like, if they like their outfit, what the hell is it to me? Live and let live and don’t worry about what other people are doing, just be yourself and allow others to be themselves.
So to go back to directly answering the question at hand, the only regrets that I have, at all, are moments when I either did something, or didn’t do something, based on what other people might think. Even the times where I made a complete ass out of myself, I am completely proud of myself for doing because honestly, I have some hilarious and obscure stories that other people will NEVER have, like the time I ended up on American Idol wearing a medieval costume holding a stuffed animal, or the time I entered a talent show with my bestie and we mimicked SNL skits. I had so much fun and so many laughs just being a total goofball and I have zero regrets about any of those times. Every time I was true to myself, from the silly things I have done to the serious decisions I have made that a lot of people didn’t like/disagreed with, I have zero regrets. Learn who you are, and never let ANYONE intimidate you into compromising yourself in any way for any reason. Thats how you live a life with minimal regrets.