For the sake of blogging and self-exploration and contemplation, I answer a question a day off of this list.
Today’s question : In the haste of your daily life, what are you not seeing?
I’m not quite sure what this question is asking, so I’m just going to go with my best guess/interpretation.
I’ve always struggled, in general, with finding meaning in life. I’ve never really known what it’s like to live with anything other than unsettled spirit. I’m sensitive; the actions and words of people profoundly effect me and when I get hurt, I don’t heal easily or quickly at all. Prone to depression and anxiety, even when my life is going well, I still find myself asking, “What’s the point of it all?”
What I’ve realized over time is that there IS no point. …Let me explain.
There are six billion people on this planet.
Our planet is part of one solar system. We don’t have either the technology, nor the mental capacity to comprehend how VAST space actually is, or if it’s contained at all in any type of measurable size, even measurable beyond our own comprehention of mathematics as we know it.
Although I’ve seen with my own eyes “the butterfly effect” of how one choice or one incident can snowball your life into a monsoon as time goes on, that only applies to Your Life. It does not effect the universe at large in the least. Even if we end up destroying our entire planet (which, let’s be honest, isn’t far off in the future) that’s just one planet in one solar system, not even a grain of sand in the vast beach that is the universe. It means nothing.
So… if your life means nothing to the world at large and yet your choices and incidences you find yourself facing can vastly effect your own life, I think there is no such thing as “the bigger picture” except your own life.
In conclusion, and to try and make more sense to people that are not myself 😉 …
Don’t worry about the world at large. Worry only about your own life, and the lives of those you directly influence. Don’t speculate on if there’s some grand meaning to anything because in reality, I’d rather spend the rest of my life at peace and doing things that fill my heart with joy than worrying about a distant future I won’t be alive to see.
I honestly have no idea if this will make sense to anyone but myself. It’s been one of those days…