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For the sake of blogging and self-exploration and contemplation, I’ve been slowly making my way through answering questions from this list.
Today’s question : Are you happy with yourself?
Sometimes. I think everyone has things they struggle with internally, be it body image, things in their lives they wish were different, etc. I find a lot of truth in the cliche, “Find the courage to change what you can, the grace to accept what you cannot change, and the wisdom to know the difference.” I think we’re always a work-in-progress until the day we die, maybe even after, who knows.
Today I did something I wouldn’t have done in the past, I felt disrespected by someone and instead of making excuses for them and giving them the opportunity to learn that I’m a sucker and easy to use and take advantage of, I confronted them civilly, and not only that, but I didn’t base my needs on how they may respond. I came out the bigger person. Whether they want to take responsibility for the way in which they behaved disrespectfully is on them. I stood up for myself, expressed my feelings, and then I walked away. That wasn’t easy for me to do either thing, and my anxiety is still lingering, but I’m proud of myself for how I handled this situation. I won’t lie, it helps to know that I now have people in my life who support me unconditionally, but I didn’t rely on them to handle this situation. I’m happy with the fact that I’m keeping my promises to myself.
I take each day as it comes, I probably always will. If I make it through the day in one piece, even if it was a struggle as some days are, as today is, that’s okay. I’m not crying or falling apart and that’s a successful day.