*** The first three books in my six-part dystopian series have officially made their way out into the world! Check them out!
For the sake of blogging, self-exploration, and contemplation, I’ve been slowly making my way through answering questions from this list
Today’s Question: What is the greatest peer pressure you’ve ever felt?
Everyone is effected in some ways by peer pressure. Due to a lot of events in my young life, I tended to react to that pressure in a different way than the “norm.” Just like every kid, I wanted to fit in, but the reality was that I didn’t. I was different for many reasons and even when I tried to be like everyone else, I was never accepted by my peers. So at a young age, I reacted to peer pressure by making a point to do the opposite.
The greatest peer pressure that I ever felt? Gosh – I honestly don’t know! Literally nothing stands out or particularly comes to mind. Maybe I should broaden my perception of “peer pressure” because it’s not always pressure to do something, like “oh hayyyy do this drug~” … Does pressure to do something horrible count? Does a group of people banning together to tell you that you’re worthless, nothing, a piece of shit and they wouldn’t feel one bit bad if I killed myself, count? It doesn’t matter if you’re 10, 15, 20, or 30 – someone acting that viciously toward you, gleefully saying such horrible things to you, it hurts. You can rationalize it all you want: “They’re obviously very unhappy or mentally ill and their behavior toward you reflects them and their problems and isn’t actually personal to you at all” – okay, maybe that’s true, but try to tell that to your emotions! So I guess, the pressure to disappear, the pressure to just end the pain? That’s probably the greatest peer pressure that I’ve ever felt.
Wow, some of these questions really take us to dark places. I think it’s time to clean my brain and watch a rom com!